Losing My Fitness Mojo – How I Fell Out Of Love With Training
Rachael Sampson works on front of house at Supersonic Fitness. Speaking from the heart, she tells us why she lost her love for fitness and how she was able to reignite it again
I’ve always been very hot and cold with sport and exercise. From playing badminton for Yorkshire in the under 16’s (as well as all the after school team sports), to turning my nose up at avid gym goers as I lie in bed eating my second bag of family sized chilli heatwave Doritos of the day. I will most likely always have that battle as I am split between the two mindsets. Naturally I am a super lazy and laid back person, but that hasn’t always helped me in terms of feeling healthy – both mentally and physically.
The Early Days….
Fitness was easier during school as I didn’t see badminton as exercise. It was fun, and as I am an incredibly competitive individual I had to win; pushing myself so I could wear gold around my neck wasn’t the best reason to compete, but it allowed me to achieve personal goals and release all my angsty teenage frustrations. The keeping fit side to the sport was a bonus.
When university hit, I never picked up a racket. I was deeply focused on my art degree and having the best social experience possible, so I put badminton on the backburner – only to realise 3 years later that I never picked it up again. (I’ll always regret that, but I guess it’s never too late.) As you can imagine, there was a lot of alcohol and junk food consumed over the course of uni, and the notches on my belt were increasing as a consequence.
I have always been self-conscious about my weight, and the heavier I got, the more depressed I became. When I felt low, the only thing that would cheer me up was food, so I didn’t want to cut it out. (Plus the mortifying thought of being seen going for a run in public kept me indoors). I was bedbound with Ben and Jerry. I was the Bradfordian Bridget Jones!
Since leaving university I knew I had to make a drastic change for my mental and physical health. The only possible way this lazy lass could be motivated to eat less and move more would be if she actually worked in a gym. So here I am today, working at Supersonic! I am surrounded by people who advocate healthy lifestyles, and they have gradually changed my negative opinion on people in the fitness industry. The next step was to find the motivation to train and get my fitness mojo back!
Over the last several months, my mental health has taken its toll due to numerous factors. When I feel low mentally, I want to hide away (not go for a run), but the hiding only makes things worse as it forces me dwell on my problems even further.
That first gym session was incredibly difficult, but now when I workout, I feel like I am fighting my problems: I am fighting my weight, worries and anxieties, I am fighting the people who have hurt me and I am finally fighting for myself. I actually feel like I am defending myself against the things which I have no real control over, and the more endorphins I secrete, the more content my mind becomes.
My mental health and engagement with exercise will always ebb and flow. I will continue to go through those phases where I want to sleep all day and never resurface – but that’s life, and now I know what I need to do when I feel that way. Right now I can safely say I am taking charge of my mind, body and soul – and boy, does it feel good.
If Rachael’s story resonates with you and you want to change your ways with the help of Supersonic, do not hesitate to get in contact at: firstname.lastname@example.org or 01904 929540.
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